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This may be the first time

I pen from a deep well

The storm has quieted

But its wreckage sealed in amber

For us to look back on

You were my big brother

Our memories were only ours

We were the only ones there

I was always in your shadow

Though through the years

We drifted apart

You always had a place

Saved deep in my heart

I will never forget the bone chill

The ear ringing silence

The wide eyed disbelief

$ that 36 hour stiff armed drive back home

Just in time for that sorrowful procession of loved ones

I tucked in, that feather

to help carry you away

We all sat in silence

Most of the time

To face this reality

None had the strength inside

I wish that you could meet my daughter

And you could watch our daughters play together

And we could share food and drink

And memories that were only ours

But now dreams can be our only meeting place

Inside of our hearts and minds

We will pass down your memory

That you may always survive