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Overstimulation

Atavistic joy

Back to where I belong

Found my way home

Forbidden whim

Fire of my loins

Denied and torn apart

Anguish and void

Looking in a mirror

Trying to reach across

Back on the other side

But the glass shatters

Sense of pointlessness

Self-destructive urge

Need to just let go

Down in an embrace of thorns

Worthless and scarred

Pain as the only solace

Masochism and self-harm

Destructive catharsis

Hatred and self-loathing

Suicidal hysteria

Remains deep down inside

Guiding my desires

Handing myself over

To the cruelest hands

Pain and ecstasy

Engulfed by my inner black hole

Gorging on this torment

Nothing left to live for

Disposal of a dignity

I cannot afford

Instinct of self-preservation

Is now compromised

Hyperactive apathy

Don't care if I live or die

Nails deep in my skin

Teeth chewing my flesh

Bleeding and orgasming

Go on, choke me to death

Time has finally come

To get rid of myself

The ultimate copout

From a void that can't be filled