---

Standing among ruins in absolute zero

Time is erasing the delusive circles in the dust

Serenity is fading, wounded, warmth is fading by its side

Leaving only emptiness and pain

And with flames of hatred I scorched the earth upon which I fed

Melting every piece of hope left before me

Tearing me apart with every single breath

My hands buried in the ashes, the serpent's venomous fangs sink even deeper

And the pain deserts me, even though I try to hold it back

Nihil invenio nisi ruinas ubi omnis spes dissolvit

Et denigravi lumen, quod conscios inluminat gradus

Will I find anything but ruins where all hope dissolves

And I blackened the light which enlights the conscious steps of I

And behold, the stone can bleed as well

I reached so far that I lost myself and now I rove

My path and destination remain hidden and unseen

I wander through endless apathy, my blood is soaking it with hatred

The wind casts away the ashes of my soul and breathlessness chokes again

---Et nunquam claudant oculi mei, ne maledicantur in aeterna caecitate

et tamen dolori ideo vivo, memoriae meae favillae testor;

quomodo demergant in hoc antiquo sanguine meo

Brachia tendo ad dignitatem---

dignity

needed

to carry

my strength

But instead of power, smoke I reach, burning, suffocating smoke

The voice of fire dumbs me, evil fire, toxic, blue

Beyond the landscapes of rancor lurks a desolate land

et horrores delictorum meorum puniunt me et venena eorum conspuunt in faciem meam

His ego me opponam, sed qui fugiam aut vincam

But who is woundng and what oozes from the stone that bleeds again

And my wisdom vapours as the reverse dissolving of the gold in sulphur

In life's melting breath, in death's cradle

But my sight presses on and I recognize the sunset, though a sunset colourless and grey / void of colour

Trough the monochrome scorned landscape the salamander creeps in fire so it can resurrect the phoenix from the ashes

Sed qui vulnerat, et quod ex saxo adhuc sanguinante manat?

Et nebulat sapientiam meam sicut e contrario dissolutio auri in sulphure

In vitae flatu, in cunabulis mortis

Sed urget visus meus et occasum agnosco, solis occasum sine colore et griseo, colore carens

Alveus monochrome contempta topiarum salamandra igne serpit ut phoenix ex cinere resurrecturus

And the fire spils the water,

and the stone is bleeding in flames

When was I abandoned by divinity

shall fire ever be tamed

Show me a clue, reveal thy path to me,

I listen to the wind, I am led by the water

The elemental fire I internalize, enchaining it in my cold heart

XUL KHAN ESH