Here we go again
In this segmentation
Rumination once again
I can not find the meaning
I fight against myself
And just leave scarred again
Never good enough
For fucking anyone
Inferiority
It screams in my face
It tells me another lie
And I believe it again
I can not escape this
It will take everything
From contemplations to plans
I can't break this wall
I feel so ignominious
Wielding anchors on my soul
Ache is my only true companion
I've mastered the art of dissociation
Amalgamated with the dead
On the day it had stricken me down
Walking empty infinitely
I am a living despicable disease
No one would ever call my name
My distance grows greater with each passing day
So burn my grave and drown the light
Drain the inferiority out of me
For we are all destined to die
We are all secretly just waiting for our time
I chose to live with this disease
I cannot abscond it, begging on my knees
I do not want this plague
I want it out of my brain
I'm so sick of this agony
I want to be set free
Stab me right through the heart
I won't feel it, I promise you
Put me to death as I plead
I start to feel as I start to bleed
Take this from me, do it now
I know there is no coming back
But I never had that choice
In the first place
When I heard it's voice
It chose me to suffer it's wrath
I need to go, there's no coming back
It chose me to suffer it's wrath
I need to go, there's no coming back
Separated from everyone
I chose the darkest hole
Withered in the sun
It ate away at my soul
I chose this fate
I suffered endlessly
My subconscious bleeds
This wall is so fucking tall
I use all my strength
I pull apart the mortar
Brick by brick, I destroy
But the lies keep building it up
Invisible construction
The shadow people dwell
Inferiority complex
I built my own hell
Giant steps forward
For colossal steps back
I am going nowhere
Until it all collapses
I am a broken mirror
Held together with thin tape
I can function in society
But my cracks continue to bleed
These pieces barely fit back together
I can not bind these woes
Tying together the atrocities
Would never help me make it home
I do not fit in anywhere
I think it was a mistake to try to live
My reflections of this world
Are they true, am I truly alone?
I carry the carcass of a soul
I keep lying to myself that I am alone
I know I am surrounded
But the inferiority is compounded
I do not want this plague
I want it out of my brain
I'm so sick of this agony
I want to be set free
Stab me right through the heart
I won't feel it, I promise you
Put me to death as I plead
I start to feel as I start to bleed
Take this from me, do it now
I know there is no coming back
But I never had that choice
In the first place
When I heard it's voice
It chose me to suffer it's wrath
I need to go, there's no coming back
It chose me to suffer it's wrath
I need to go, there's no coming back
And so I am a collection of failures and infinite defeat
But for every loss, a quiet victory as I return to my feet
A tower of character built in solitude
But in it's completion, the first cracks start to appear
I am broken
