"I told you she won't let me leave. She won't let anyone leave. Did you really think you could destroy this ship? She has defied space and time. She's been to a place you couldn't possibly imagine. And now... it is time to go back." "I know... to Hell." "You know nothing. Hell is only a word. Reality is much, much worse." Hell is only a fucking word Reality is so much, much worse I long for the silence of eternity A delusion inside, it's burning me Motherfucker Tossing and turning and twitching in torment I derealize Pacing and panting and panic in pain I dissociate Crying and killing the constant corruption I depersonalize Haptic delusion, a sign of the end times I exit life I stood at the edge and Gazed beyond the realms of Humankind I wanted to fall in It would not fix my world But it was an answer I wanted to fall in And so I gave up Take a seat, metal It's time for rap to meddle Just got a sneaking suspicion About another apparition A viscious visage haunting my slumber It' s crushing me like a hundred motherfucking pieces of lumber I'm all sixes and sevens at the 7-11 But pardon my digression Got a haptic delusion I'm in a manic confusion From my mental contusions And a depression-suicide fusion I'm using this space to vent Instead of making a dent Inside the side of my head Thinking I'd be better off dead I'm trapped in a constant battle Want my death rattle Can't stop my psycho babble I've lost all sense of reason I'm l ost in suicide season Thinking I'll be bleeding all over the place soon I'ma get a shotgun, Kurt Cobain boom Yeah Just a haptic delusion, I'm a fucking wreck I'm gonna do my best To deny all emotional existence Sociopathic position That's where we all must be In this new society They did it to you and did it to me You and I and them and they will never be free Don't you see agony in accepting this reality We want to be what can not be We must delude ourselves Into lack of mental health Trapped like it's fucking Cube The next room can be your doom Just call me paranoid Feels like I entered the void Return type, fuck you The world will never love you Just accept that death is all that we have left Time to give up, put it to rest